I lost my faith the other day.
It went away without consent.
It left me all alone in rain,
My hopes got low, my clothes got wet.
I kept on looking all day long
In every corner of my town.
Couldn’t bear it, my faith was gone!
I started digging in the ground.
Shuffling and shifting all the dirt
With worms and bugs and my own sin.
I dug deep down until it hurt
And blood came out from nails and skin.
The mud turned red, my tears run dry,
My veins cut open, grew with scars.
You never win unless you try
So I got up and run to (a) car.
I drove all night around the town…
People and streets seemed all so grey.
The rain had stopped, the sun came out
And then I saw it, my lost faith.
Miserable she stood at a lake
Looking at the waters now calm.
She asked me if it was too late
To fix everything that was wrong…
My faith was sad, alone, so lost…
Many have turned their back on her,
They’ve forgotten what counts the most
And their vain was what took her there.
“The world is rotten” whispered she,
“Nobody cares what will there be
Tomorrow, in a thousand years,
Because they are too blind to see.”
“If I am gone” she looked at me
“I’ll be followed by others too:
Hope and love, happines and peace…
What’s the human kind gonna do?”
“We will be lost and doomed to death.
What we need most, money can’t buy.
We cannot exist without you, Faith,
Although many wanted to try…”
My faith was torn, could not decide
Whether (to) stay or end it now…
Seemed so easy to jump and dive
To feel freedom again somehow…
The lake was calm with waters deep,
The sky so blue, the wind on hold…
I wondered if she could not see
That with her gone, my heart is stone.
She saw the tears run down my face,
My lips turned blue with blood so cold.
My soul was looking for (a) new place
To leave my body on its own.
I could not feel a thing no more…
The world got dark and froze with fear.
My feelings gone, my thoughts a blur
The end was coming, death was near.
And then she touched me deep inside,
She hold my heart, brought back my soul
“I won’t leave you, it’s not the time.
You have the spirit to fight for more.”
Copyright Anna E.R. Walczak